2008-here's to making it great.

*cheers*
2007 has come to an end...I have to say that although 07 started out scary with unknowns about my marriage and such, it did end on a much better note.

I have reconnected with a lot of old friends in 2007. Thanks again to myspace...lol. It is like the six degrees of Kevin Bacon, but with myspace. To much of my surprise though, reconnecting with some of these people has brought me right back to "me" the way I felt in high school. As much as I like to think I am more secure with who I am now, meeting with these rekindles has shown me that maybe I am NOT as secure as I like to think I am.

In school, I was a very insecure person. I used boyfriends to make me feel better about me. I had lots of friends but only a few that I let REALLY see me for me. In the few encounters with the rekindles, I felt myself sinking into the corner, afraid of what they saw, what they thought of me and I really couldn't let myself shine as I let myself shine now. It was so odd and as much as I was yelling in the inside I couldn't get out.

Daily affirmations of "I am a good friend, I am a caring person" just didn't escape through me in the new meetings. I struggled with the overwhelming feeling of "see me" and "be MY friend". It was suffocating. Truth is, I don't need more friends, but I want everyone to like me and I go so far as not being "me" to try to bring them to my side.

That isn't who I thought I was today at my almost ripe age of 34. I do still want others to like me, but I don't go to the extremes anymore to make sure of it. Sitting with these people took me right back to that feeling and it was just annoying. LOL.

So now the new baby of 08 has arrived, I hope that 08 is great. Isn't that the gayest rhyme and the total cliche saying? LOL...I cracked myself up several times on NYE when I kept saying it over and over and over. *giggle*

There are no resolutions for me this year, even if there were, I make it a rule to NEVER divulge my resolutions so that I only disappoint myself when I don't stick with them.

A lot of my friends will be welcoming additions to their families in 08, that is really exciting. Other than that, I can't think of anything that is really exciting to look forward to as the new year starts. Not that I am disappointed by that, I actually am happy to think that maybe this year things will be calm. I will be calm. I will be me and happy that I know who I am. Maybe I will have a chance to show others the real me and they can take me or leave me and I won't be any different for it.

So for me, 08 is going to be great. *haha* I hope you all have a "great" one as well!