— Sue Sylvester Glee
I would like to tell you all about my exciting evening.
I would like to be blogging about going to see Glee Live tonight
What I feel right now is not glee.
Not glee at all.
I am sick. SICK to my stomach.
There is something wrong, something seriously wrong.
My Bubba has done it again.
Worse this time.
I can't even joke about it. I got a call from the principle.
There is something he is SEEING or there is something HAPPENING to him.
I am scared. I am literally scared.
What if there IS something happening to him and I didn't even know?
If it is something he is seeing or hearing, then WHERE? Has it been while under my care?
If this continues to happen in the school setting there will be legal actions taken. It's not a threat from the schools, it's a fact.
I, of course don't want it to get to that. As it is I look at my parenting skills under a microscope all the time. To have someone else do it too, I would willingly open my door to it, but that would be scary as hell.
In relating some of the things that have happened at home with Bubba to the school counselor she strongly suggests that he go and talk with a professional.
I am a very big advocate of counseling, but to hear that for matters of this nature is horrifying.
As much as I am willing to jump through hoops and get answers on this matter, it is terrifying to KNOW. To know his file has been marked, to know that this deviant behavior is more than a boy just being a boy. To know that I am his mother and therefore directly and/or indirectly responsible for his behavior.
I am sick, just literally sick to my stomach.
I just feel lost. I don't know what to do.
The counselor is sending me a list of professionals and I will be taking Bubba in to talk to someone.
I will continue to fight for resolution and I guess, that is all that I can do at this point.
I will get to the bottom of this, but will I be able to HANDLE the truth???
What doesn't kill us will make us stronger, no?
I fucking hope so.
I am sick for you Stacie. Be strong, you can do this, you are his mother, you will kick some serious ass to get this figured out.
ReplyDeleteAnd we got your back, girl. Sending you big hugs and lots of stregth.
Oh Stacie, I'm so sorry. Girl this is not you. I just know it is not. You are totally doing the right thing by getting counseling. This may be just acting out on his part because of the finality of the whole divorce and you being with someone new (my little brother always had trouble with my mom dating someone different), or maybe it could be something else. The truth is that you just can't know until you find out. And you can't start working to fix the problem until you know what the real problem is. I wish I could give you a big hug and sit and listen.
ReplyDeleteYikes and holy poop!!!!
ReplyDeleteI do hope you get answers. No child should have to deal with this. hugs!
I soooo feel your pain. I know sometimes you feel like you really dont want to know. For the fear of not being able to handle what your told.
ReplyDeleteThere are no words I can give you other than stay strong. It will all work out.
Ugh hun, I'm really sorry to hear this, but like I told you earlier, It is ok to worry, indeed, but I'm sure nothing is happening to him. It's cause for great stress of course, not knowing exactly where this all comes from but hopefully it can be resolved with no major complications and hoping too that Mr C will wake up and be mature enough to take charge of the situation, or his situation and grow up a little.
ReplyDeleteHang in there. Sending you positive energy.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry that you are feeling this way. I am so sorry that you are having to deal with this thing with Bubba. I know it's gotta be hard on you, really hard.
ReplyDeleteHang in there, do what you gotta do to help him get better.
You are a good mommy, I have never doubted that, and things will get better...I promise!
WOW, I don't know what to say since I don't have children.
ReplyDeleteI wish you could stop beating yourself up. It must be frustrating when you are sharing the parenting responsibilities with someone who you aren't around 24/7 and you have to trust him. This isn't all on you.
I don't know why he is acting that way. Is it a possibility that maybe he hung out with Porkstar, and Porky taught him all that he knows ?
Seriously though, is it a possibility that maybe your child is just a little more "curious" than others ? Could this be a phase ?
I hope you find the answers you are looking for. The fact that you are willing to seek out professional help for him and let go of the parenting reigns a little speaks volumes for how much you love him and want the best for him.
::Hugs::
Oh my goodness! Stacie, I'm so sorry this is happening to you guys. I think you're right to take him to talk to someone just to cover your bases, but don't rule out the "he's just a boy" thing, either. Hormones are terribly powerful and maybe Bubba's just kicked in too soon and he doesn't know enough about social graces yet to hide it.
ReplyDeleteDon't panic. School officials are sometimes quick to hit the panic button, IMO. You're a great mom and you will handle this and Bubba will learn boundaries. ((Hugs))
Oh Stacie!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry - I wish I could say or do something more effective than just extend my sympathies. I'm sending huge internet hugs your way!
Wow. That's just scary.
ReplyDeleteoh hon. I can't imagine it's anything YOU've done.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes...what does not kill us makes us stronger. I'm a perfect example of that! :)
Thoughts are with you.
you never get anything you can't handle, that's what I believe, you will get to the bottom of whatever is going on with your monkey...
ReplyDeleteI saw a counselor in elementary and again in High school....it was good to talk to someone...you are doing the right thing..
Do take him to therapy to find out what may be going on. Masturbation can start young but acting out inappropriately needs to be discussed with a child psychologist. Sorry that this is happening.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Bev. I also think counseling can't hurt and it will set your mind at ease to get it all sorted out.
ReplyDeleteRemember, you are human. You are doing everything you can possibly do to be the best parent you can be. There is no shame in asking for and seeking help.
{{{{{{HUGS}}}}} to you and Bubba.
Oh crap. I am sorry this sucks!
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