No, not your normal Holiday hustle and bustle post, though that is in full swing as well.
It is the annual manly hunting trip. A trip that hubby and I decided he wouldn't be attending this year due to the cost of the upcoming Disney trip. Yet weeks before said trip was to begin, he decided he was going anyway.
But whatever.
I am looking forward to not having to deal with him this week. I am looking forward to doing my own thing, kids in tow.
I look forward to answering the phone, IF I WANT TO. I am looking forward to cooking as many healthy meals as I want, not worrying one bit if he is going to like it or not. (not that I really worry about it anyway)
Overall, I am just looking forward to this week, PERIOD. It is a much different feeling than last year. Sure last year I toyed with the ideas of being a single mom, (which, can there be a different name for it than SINGLE mom?) this year, the reality of it is coming to surface.
I am not scared. I am not scared about all the things that will lie solely on my shoulders, because, for the most part, it has felt like the world (my world) has laid there all along.
The only part that remotely intimidates me is the finances, (says one scared mom who just received her first GINORMOUS bill from the lawyer) making it all alone on my salary. Yes there will be child support, but when the preliminary numbers were dispersed, I almost choked. We will definitely have to cut back, reevaluate the things that we (and by we, I mean ME) have deemed "necessary".
Even this challenge though, excites me a little.
I am ready to do this alone, I am ready for the rewards that will come to me. I know there will be a great self confidence to be gained here.
Ok, maybe I am HOPING there will be a great self confidence to be gained. Where there is hope there is um, hope.
Well, this day marks day one (of the rest of my life, hahah, not really) of this year's hunting trip. So far, sooooo GOOD. I have some chores to get done before my work week starts, so I shall move on. I hope you all are having a great weekend.
Check out the previous two posts for some fun give-aways on other blogs. Keep your fingers crossed for me to win ;), that is unless you are playing along too, then of course I hope YOU win (liar, liar).
Hunting trips are GREAT! They give you time to sit back, relax, and ENJOY a week or so! What's the our shooting? Deer?
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The manly hunting trip--I have to laugh at that. I don't hunt nor do I want to but it seems to be something that is a rite of passage here.
ReplyDeleteThis is a great chance for you to be alone and enjoy time with just the three of you. I have no doubt that you are going to be great once the split is final. You are strong and have been doing the hard stuff alone for a long time. You will be okay.
ReplyDeleteI know you'll be just fine!
ReplyDeleteLooking forward to my boys leaving! little mommy, daughter bonding is always good!
ReplyDeleteSounds like you have a nice week to look forward to. Everything will work itself out - you've made the tough decision, now it's all downhill. :)
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