A little bit random.

"Just for the record, the weather today is calm and sunny, but the air is full of bullshit."

— Chuck Palahniuk (Diary)
 
 
Haha. I love this.
 
I might have to check out the book, Diary.

He also wrote Fight Club. 

I haven't seen that movie in a long time...but I remember liking Brad Pitt it. Ed Norton wasn't hard to look at either.

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Wanna see a great performance on Idol???

Me too. 

I kid.  Here check this out...



Hawt?  No?  I like Haley, but this completely SOLD me...it was haunting...and awesome....I loved it.

We said good bye to Churchy (Jacob Lusk) last night.  I think it was the right decision. 

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I am thankful for this trip to the Dude Ranch this weekend. 

I am hoping it won't make me miss my Mom as much on Mother's Day. :(

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I hope you all have a wonderful weekend, happy mother's day to all of the MUTHAS moms out there.

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I think I might have jinxed myself....

Yesterday's post about death...to my first found gray hair today.

Seriously?

I had chinese food for lunch.  I love this place by work here, they have been the best.  I order the #19, shredded chicken with mushroom.  *drool*  The second exciting part is always the fortune cookie.  Today's...was without fortune.  I know.  WTF???  Fortuneless cookie???

*pft*


A favorite contestant of mine went home on American Idol last night. :( Fondly (not fondling) nick named as Onion JR...

Casey Abrams. :(  You're one cool cat...I will miss not seeing you on the show.

I'm not all gloom and doom here today.  It is Friday.  yo!

I bought myself a new camera and it arrived yesterday.  I <3 Amazon.com.

I bought a new lens for said camera and it arrived today.  I <3 Amazon.com.

Mr.FF still loves me and thinks I'm beautiful.  Gray hair. And all. 

*smiling as he hands me the box of hair dye*

It's opening weekend for baseball...expect some photos next week...hopefully they will be good ones. ;)

Have a great weekend!

Friday fly by

Holy cow, today has FLOWN by...maybe it's cause it's down right WINDY out today.

I walked out for lunch and thought, "Toto, we aren't in Kansas anymore."

It's THAT windy out there.

I do love when Friday's fly by...the closer to 5pm the better. :)

I haven't talked much about Idol this season, but I was a little surprised that Mr. White Teeth was eliminated last night.  I shall miss his beautiful smile. He did sing Maggie May really well.




Buh Bye Paul...keep on smilin. :)

Have a great weekend.

IDOL =>The way I see it.

I'm gonna go out on a limb here and call my top five girls/boys and name the wild cards.

Boys.
In no particular order:
James Durbin (Riki Tiki)
Casey (This is what we imagine Onion looking like when he's older and much cooler)
Scotty (This is Buggy's favorite...and quite honestly he is ADORABLE and has a voice to boot (get it? cowboy boot?) *dorks*)
Jake (The preacher, this man takes this woman to church, I wanna go praise the Lord where he praises the Lord)
Clint (Jumbalya)
Judges wild card will be PAUL old MCDONALD- F*cking whitest teeth ever and beautiful blue eyes...

Girls
Again in no particular order:
Diva (Ashthon is her real name and I can't pronounce that shit)
Thia (....)
Kendra (If I rolled that way, I'd get moist for you)
Lauren NC (North Carolina Chops)
Pia (no need for a nickname when your real name is so fun to say...really. say it. PIA...PEEEEAAAAA)
Judges wild card will be HALEY (Gruntastic)

Check 'em all out on American Idol DOT com.  HOLLA.

There you have it...kinda a spoiler, right?  Ha well we will see.  There really are so many GOOD ones this year...only 4 IMHO out of the top 24 fell flat on their faces.

Here's the major FAIL that I mentioned yesterday...today it just makes me giggle...BAAAADDD



I think Glee should pick up Stefano and Julie (who looks a lot like "Racheal" from Glee anyway...replacement option if Michele Lea ever leaves the show...and did I just show my Gleekness right there?)

So we will see how many I get right...til tomorrow my loverlies.

disconnect.

*beep beep beep*

I think I'm gonna have to go random today, I've attempted two separate blogs..and I just can't post them entirely.

My mind is all kinds of random today.  I'm feeling a little Charlie Sheenish.

Does anyone even have "house phones" anymore to know that beeping noise when the phone is off the hook...and just in saying "off the hook"...it's funny to think of the things my kids have today...and have never heard of before.

WE have a "house phone". 

Particularly for Buggy's friends to call her...but we never answer it. 

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I've been hearing about Charlie Sheen and the shit he's saying...and it is funny...he's friggin lost it...yet as I listen to the full interview here and here, I am sickened.  I am NOT kidding you when I say this but MY GOD he sounds like some addicts i know...it's creepy...and sad...and scary.  Seriously delusional.

*shakes head*

He may think he's Bi-Winning, in reality, he's done lost it.

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Mr. FF has been really busy at work, which quite frankly is putting a damper on our frequent email talks.  It sucks.  Yesterday he says, "Although I can't always write long responses, I still want to hear what's going on with you."

*blink blink*

Isn't that like blogging?  I go on and on about me, with a few comments here and there?

Maybe I'm unclear but a conversation is between two people, no? 

I am not THAT narcissistic.

(Hi. Blog.)

In truth, I'd love to hear about your life too dear...not just ramble about mine.

That goes for all of you who read here too.
*looks at YOU*
*YES YOU*

***

Speaking of conversations, I wish  I wasn't having any conversations with my mother.  I know. I will burn in hell now...but hear me out.

I don't need/want to hear about Joe the Plumber and his inability to...ya know....get... um....erect.
THANKYOUVERYMUCH.
*washes out ears*

Or how Jose the Weinersnitzel came out of your bedroom slinging his schlong at you telling you to c'mon.
DAMMIT.
*gets a shot of whiskey to forget*

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Idol...here is my mood, I have all kinds of strange maybe not so nice names for the contestants.  I think that Mr.FF and I are competing to see who can come up with the best/worse.

Jordon't (ie; Jordan) WHAT A STUPID SONG CHOICE YOU JACKTARD.  I love Usher, but not even Usher sounds good singing OMG.  It's auto tuned...and Will I.Am sings better in it.  Dummy.  Meh.  Buh- Bye.

I might get back to my Idol review ways... :)  I think it's a GREAT season so far...I adore Casey...but I want to save some of my excitement til the girls perform (twhs).  :) 

Last year's winner...

*adore*

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Ok that's all I have time for today...I will try my best to not be so disconnected...

*beep beep beep*
*please hang up and dial the number again*

Idol...WOW.

Seriously? I think that might have been one of the best Idol finales yet.

OUT-FRIGGIN-STANDING.

This number by Christina Aguilera...left me with tears and chills.
(


I have never owned a Christina Aguilera cd, but that song makes me WANT to own her new one due out June 8th. (Little plug...cause it really was/is that great of a song...wow)

Not to mention all the other big timers that performed on the show.
Joe Cocker
Alanis Morrisette
Chicago
BeeGees
JANET (M-FING) JACKSON *swoon* (what's up with the hair though, or lack thereof)

Her song too, wow. Really.


Oh...and Alice Cooper was on the show...I mean THIS SHOW was JAM packed with performances.

I loved it. By the end of the show I was sooo wound up and full of joy that I might have let out a squeal when the winner was announced.



CONGRATS! CONGRATS!! CONGRATS!!!

To the Crystal fans...she had an awesome night on Tuesday. She will have a great career, I am sure of it.

DeWyze Choice

Lee last night on Idol = awesomeness.

He really rocked it out.

I, for the first time this season, voted.

I really hope he wins.

Maybe I was just a crab.

I didn't agree with the judges AT.ALL last night on Idol...

Buggy and I watched, I snarled, I cringed and then my jaw dropped when the judges raved. I looked over at Buggy and asked, "What am I missing?"

Towards the end of the show, I KNEW I must have been missing SOMETHING because Shebangs performed and I thought, "That was ATROCIOUS"...then the judges loved it.

I had decided right then that I must rewatch the show, cause maybe I was just a crab.

As the delete or save program option popped up on my TV, I hit delete.

DAMMIT.

Buggy giggled. I stomped my feet. She giggled more.

SO, I am listening to them again today at www.americanidol.com

Shania Twain night. (How adorable is she???)

Aaron Kelly...chicken little. "You've Got A Way. - Clay Aiken ish??? Anyone? One of the judges said, "this is the kind of record you should be making"...and just like Clay's records, this is the kind of record I will not be buying. Just sayin.

Casey James...Don't. First response last night was DON'T SING ANOTHER THING...but Mr.F said he LOVED it...so I really wanted to give it another chance. On second listen, I still don't like it. He has a shakiness (vibrato???) to his voice that annoys me. Maybe Mr.F liked it more for a dedication to me and not really for the singing of it (though to be honest, Mr.F did say ...and I quote..."he can sing")

Don't fight, don't argue
Give me the chance to say that I'm sorry
Just let me love you
Don't turn me away, don't tell me to go

He's so romantic. No worries babe, apology accepted for whatever it is you did this time.

haahahah I KID I KID.

Moving on to Crystal Bowersox..."No One Needs to Know"...she said this was a shout out to her boyfriend...a piss or get off the pot message??? (PS. No one needs to know, except the millions watching. We'll keep your secret.) I thought it was an OK performance...somewhere in the middle she lost me with the twanginess, but it was just OK for me (dawg). SURPRISE SURPRISE the judges didn't like it. Neither did Mr.F and he's really up Crystal's ass a fan of hers.

Lee DeWyze..."You're Still the One"...started out rough for me. It really did and still is the second time around. When he got into it though, I did like it O.K. but I wasn't that impressed and thought it could have been better. I am up his ass and want him to win a big fan of his.

Michael *yawn* Lynche..."It Only Hurts When I Breath"..Judges compared him to Luther Vandross. I like Luther, but I don't own any of his records, cds, albums, whatever. Anyone wondering where Michael's personality went? He's a sleeper, yawnfest. He sings well, I agree, I'd buy his Lullaby cd. Michael Lullaby Lynch.

Siobhan Magnus..."Any Man of Mine" FOR THE LOVE OF PETE. I am not kidding when I say I wanted to throw something after her performance. If Buggy hadn't been sitting next to me I would have cussed up a storm. Worse of it, THE JUDGES LOVED IT...I'd like to roll tape and have everyone watch Shania's face...cause I think it says it all...at least it did to me. If you want to save your ears check around 2:55 for Shania's face.



It reminds me of this time when I was in high school...and a friend heard me sing. He said my voice was too sing songy to do any upbeat song, he said my voice was too sweet and flowy...it's what rang through my head when Shebangs was singing. It was too flowy...and then she did that G-damn screaming.

*argh*

So there you have it. My Idol review of last night's show. I think bottom three will be Aaron, Siobhan, and Michael. I'd like to see either Aaron or Siobhan go home.

Well, uh huh.

Elvis has LEFT the building.

What is with this year's contestants on Idol???

I reminds me of when I was young watching the Chicago Cubs, I'd ALWAYS fall asleep.

ZZZZZZ

Has the pool of mentors been used up? Adam Lambert??? AS a MENTOR???

The song he is singing tonight though, isn't bad. I kinda like it.



Ok, here's my review. Don't fall asleep as I almost did watching last night.

Crystal...Mr.FF's favorite. So much so that when I give MY opinion of her and her performances the only response he has for me is a smile and a very heartfelt "I love you". Once he has an opinion, there isn't much changing of said opinion. Here's what I think, she can sing. Yep. Great. Judges are up her arse. I like underdogs. She's consistent. BLAAAAH.

Andrew...MY favorite from the beginning, this week as in week's past...ugh. Andrew Andrew Andrew...three words...ONE HIT WONDER. It's a bummer too, cause I really liked him going into the competition. Meh. It was a horrible rendition, not even kareoke worthy.

Tim...lovingly, in an ungay way, called David Cassidy by Mr.FF. I did not like it. Sure there were a few "moments" in there that were good, but um, nope, didn't float my boat. I agree with the judges, he sure is cute.

Aaron...our current Chicken Little...PUHLEASE. Really? I think he should get out of his comfort zone more often, but that's because I don't like his "comfort zone" singing. Why is he still sick? Or was the cough just an excuse for his poor performance?

Shebangs....I am not sure what's happened to her...she's lost her way, lost her edge, something. ZZZZZZZZZ.

Mike...I think he has a great voice, but where's his spirit, where's his ENERGY??? For the love of Pete can SOMEONE do something really fun??? *yawn*

Katie...much better performance from her, but it felt forced with the "acting"...

(I'm bored again, just with these reviews)

((This is totally out of order))

Kacey...This started out really good, I thought, then as Adam stated in the one on one time, it LACKED A CLIMAX...and ladies...we all know no good on the no climax issue. Thanks Kacey, left me laying there thinking WTF? That's all? *psha*

Lee...MY FAVORITE OF THE NIGHT...He has shown such progress, he still seems lacking in personality in the interview afterwards, but his stage presence and performance is improving. I like him. A lot.

There you have it.

*nudges to wake you up*

Best part of the night???

GLEE!!!!

This show just makes me smile...and it won't let me post any of the videos from it...booo...

So I will give you this...Glee performing on Oprah. Did I mention that I'm going to see Glee LIVE in May???

Yep, I'm a gleek.
:D

Stacie Is Your Next American Idol!!!!!!

Well Stacie is my idol anyways.



For those of you just joining us...Your regularly scheduled beautiful Stacie will not be airing on this blog today. Instead, it is Mr. FF.




I finally got to talk to her last night and told her all of her loyal readers dearly miss her.



***STACIE UPDATE*** Stacie is doing ok on her vacation. It was cool and rainy yesterday and her and the kids were not able to go swimming. So she met up with a friend and they all went to a museum. That's all I will say about that. I will save the details for her to tell you.






There is my Baby...I miss her to death!!!! As much as I love seeing her in that Cubs shirt, I would love to see her out of it. Oh Whoa, I almost forgot to keep it clean. Oops.


So, in tribute to Stacie and out of respect for Stacie, I will give you MY review of American Idol last night. **WARNING** I am not as kind as her, and last night was like a vacuum convention.....IT SUCKED!!!


*Disclaimer* I am not, nor do I proclaim to be a musician, a music critic, a music writer, a music agent, a musicians roadie, a musicians groupie, a musicians cook, a musicians pilot, a musicians maid, a musicians gardener, or a musicians hair stylist. In fact, if I were born deaf, I probably wouldn't even enjoy music. hmmmm?



Crystal Bowersox: There were a couple of exceptions to the lack of any talent whatsoever last night, and none bigger than our girl Crystal. As Randy Jackson would say, "she was hot". As she stood on her plush carpet (what?) Crystal belted out Janis Joplin's "me and Bobby McGee". After previous weeks of seeming almost disinterested with the competition, Crystal performed with the enthusiasm and soul required to remove any doubt that she is the one to beat (yeaaaah).



Lee Dewyze: Lee was my second favorite of the night. Singing "The Letter", he lost his guitar, came out of his shell, and showed a hint of personality. Although this wasn't his best vocal performance, to me, it was his best overall performance. My advice to Lee if this Idol thing doesn't work out, do not make an attempt at "so you think you can dance".



Casey James: Casey is normally one of my favorites, but I don't think God himself could make Huey Lewis and the news "Power Of Love" sound good. That song wasn't good in the 80's when it came out, and it certainly isn't any good now. Terrible song choice. Casey tried his best to make it work, but that's like planting flowers on a landfill.



Siobhan Magnus: If Siobhan wasn't already weird enough, I spent the majority of the 3and a half minutes she sang Stevie Wonder's "Superstitious" trying to figure out what the hell she did to her hair. So I guess it was ok. Although there are times I do enjoy a woman screaming (that's what I said), it's getting old real fast.



Michael Lynche: Although the vocals were pretty good, Rudy had to wake me up after Mike's boring rendition of "when a Man Loves a Woman" was over. Also, I do like to see a little confidence and some arrogance, Mike has become a little to cocky for me. Confucius always says, man who has hole in pocket....feels cocky all day.



Aaron Kelly: Chicken Little II claimed to have laryngitis. It's called puberty!!! HELLOOOO, you're not fooling me. Normally I dread hearing him, and much more, I have to turn away from the TV cause I can't stand watching him. last night he was actually pretty decent. Maybe it was the song choice with "don't wanna miss a thing". I really like that song, and thought he did ok.



Andrew Garcia: I did hold the same opinion with Andrew as everyone else. I sit in anticipation every week hoping he is going to pull another brilliant performance out of the blue. After last night, I have given up. He is officially on my "you suck" list.



Katie Stevens: I have good news and bad news for Katie. The good news is, her performance last night didn't suck as bad as all of her other performances. The bad news is, all of her other performances sucked really BAD!!!



Didi Benami: I'm not even sure what the hell was goin on here. I started to get that odd feeling that I was watching TV at 3:00 in the morning, a commercial was on, and at any moment Didi was going to look into the camera and say "me and my friends can't wait for you to call 1-900-you're-no-good".



Tim Urban: Just when I thought David Cassidy couldn't get any worse than last weeks "Under the Sea" from the Little Mermaid...he got worse. I thought that when he did his slide, it would have really enhanced his performance if his pants ripped. I mean, if you're going to continue to get votes based on your looks, you may as well show the little girlies your junk.



Paige Miles: Lets just say Helen Keller sings better than Paige. Luckily, I was interrupted during Paige's butchering of "Against All Odds" due to Rudy riffling through the drawer to get a knife so he could slit his wrists...er upper dog paws...or wherever a dog would slice in order to off themselves during times of severe torture.


So there you have my recap.

My prediction: It's time to turn the "Paige". If she is not gone tonight...Rudy and I will be watching next week with matching cutlery.

Rolling Snores...and Happy St. Patrick's Day

Last night's review of Idol.

Snoresville.

Really.

I don't think any of them blew me away.

More like, "This BLOWS."

(twhs)

I think that Shibhon was good, but yelling at the end and it was throaty sounding to me.



Andrew Garcia was better, but nothing stellar.

Chicken Little 2, was better, but I can't stand looking at him.
(I am not even going to link him...search if you want)

Crystal, the clear favorite according to Simon and um, probably the rest of the world, but last night's performance didn't compare to her her previous week's performance.

The best, in my opinion, of the night was Lee Deswayze. (yes, I know that's not his real name)

Swayze


Dewyze

No?

Well, here is his performance.



Speaking of Patrick.

Happy St. Patrick's Day.

Sure isn't the same being a grown-up Mom as St. Patty's day was in the "olden days". I won't be out drinking any green beer tonight. I was never a real fan of corn beef and though I love cabbage, it gives me gas. My fiber one bars do enough of that for me now so I can skip the cabbage.

I don't even have the kids tonight to subject them to a green dinner. BOOO.

I did send them to school in green, but I pinched them anyway as they were on their way out the door this morning. Nothing say love like a nice pinch on the ass arm.

So I am pinching you now, if you aren't wearing green and wishing any of you that are going out tonight, becareful and have one for me (or two).

50% isn't bad, but it's NOT GREAT.

I'd like to remain in the fantasy that I'm great.

Just sayin.

My predictions for Idol last night were 50% right.

I was shocked, to say the least and a little more sad than I thought I'd be when the results were given.

I would like to thank the idol people for giving me a heart attack. Two guys standing; one going home and one staying.

Craptastic.

My favorite guy, Andrew Garcia, was one of the guys standing.

The other guy Alex Lambert, I've been becoming more of a fan of his as each week passes. Something about his voice made me a little wet hot, not gonna lie. Then that feeling passes when I see the mullet and think about his age, but he could sing to me anytime.



I was glad that Andrew made it through, but to see Alex cry as bad as he did last night, broke.my.heart. for real.

What hurts the most is now I have to listen to Chicken Little 2, Crispy (Aaron Kelly) again for another week.

My ears are crying just thinking about it.

The girls, Vicki should be happy that the "creepy girl" is gone, but I was surprised for a few reasons. 1) I could have cared less who went, but thought Paige should have been gone. 2) with the two standing at the end, I thought Katie was gonna go before Lilly.

My heart wasn't as broken, however, because I think that Crystal is the best girl.

And that's all I'm gonna say about that...

Movin on to my other shock of the night.

Survivor. Really?

Really. James, INJURED, unable to run/walk/compete is MORE valuable to the Heroes (why can I never spell that word without looking it up???) tribe than Tom?

I think Tom is a douche, but STILL....James? What kind of pull does he have over these people?

I agree with Tom when he said in reference to James, "All mass, no class".

WORD.

My word of advice for JT, man up, either you're a heroe or you're a villain. Take the game by the reigns baby and run that shit. mmk?

Can't wait to see the battle between Russell and Boston Rob next week, let's get dirty boys. AAAhhhhh YYEEEEAAAAHHH.

And that's all I'm gonna say about that.

Now what?

*pumps chest and throws hands in the air antagonizingly so*

Until then....

So sometimes, when I take breaks from blogging for whatever reason, I find it difficult to come back and form thoughts.

When I was in high school I took creative writing and one of the things that my teacher suggested for such blocks was just to start writing. Write anything and everything on my mind to see where it would go.

It's amazing where it would take me sometimes, my crazy mind and all.

I can sit down at my computer and start typing and then before I know it I have a novel of thoughts, they may not be coherent, but they are thoughts nonetheless.

Today, I did just that and even though the post is almost complete, I want to go back over it and make sure it makes sense.

Therefore, in the mean time, I wanna post about Idol.

Who's watchin?

Who's your favorite?

I have a favorite guy and a favorite girl...The guy though, peaked early (premature peakage, I hate when that happens).

Andrew Garcia, blew everyone away Hollywood week with his rendition of Paula Abdul's Straight Up. I have enjoyed his performances since, but just like the judges, I've been left a little unsatisfied (premature peakage will do that to ya).


It still gives me chills now rewatching it.

Last night he chose Christina Aguilera's Genie in a Bottle...I was so hopeful that he would do more to it to give the same WOW factor. I think it fell short. Boo. I do think he is fantastic, but so many today have said they are worried about his fate on the show.

Here's last night's performance.




My favorite girl, Crystal Bowersox, I don't think she's faltered ONCE....and TUESDAY'S performance had me so pumped up from the minute I heard what she was singing and all through her performance that I about peed my pants.



I know, right????

So tonight we will see who goes home, but I don't have any fears about Crystal staying, I sure HOPE that the fan base for Andrew is big enough to keep him around.

My predictions.
Going home for the boys:


Aaron Kelly (who I've dubbed as Chicken Little 2 (if your an Idol fan you'll remember Chicken Little 1))

(Chicken Little 2, Crispy)


(Chicken Little 1, The Original)


And I think it's time for Toddrick Hall to go...



For the girls...my predictions...

Katelyn Epperly, the only thing memorable about her is the bird's nest of hair.

and sadly,

Paige Davis, though with a sad heart, I think she has great potential, but that last performance...yikes. She was emotional singing and my heart felt a little sad for her UNTIL the interview afterwards. She explained that Michael Jackson had done a version and she was a huge fan, with his passing *hits fast forward button at this point* Seriously? Her emotional performance for MJ's passing just f-ed up her chances as America's Idol. I'm just sayin.

Ok, if I'm wrong, you all can come back and laugh at me tomorrow, mmmk?

IDOL

David rocked it out last night. (haha)

Ok Ok, I'll be more specific.

I think A. is going to win, even though I want C. to win. Like some Americans, I didn't vote because I like to just complain about it after everyone else did the deciding. ;)

A. sang like he wanted to win and C. sang like he was already a star and could care less if he won this silly competition.

I thought the boxing theme was GAY.

K...we will see how it all goes down tonight. I really do hope that Cooke wins it all!!

Where is the week going?

I can't believe it is Wednesday already.
Workin it Wednesday. Not to be confused with workin it Friday. :D

My Mother's day was NICE! I did find my mom a really awesome pair of earrings that I was secretly hoping she didn't like so that *I* could have them. :) I would have bought her something else to replace it. I even tried them on...shhhhh. LOL. I really want those earrings.

The kids and hubby did good...they had a cute card, the kids had stuff they made at school and they went in and bought me a facial gift certificate at the spa. So it was all very nice. :) I really love the stuff the kids make me more than anything. Seriously I cherish those.

IDOL...I PREDICT DAVIDS IN THE FINAL. Just sayin...again...for the record. :)

In honor of wordless Wednesday (which I obviously have no concept of wordless) and in honor of my Weight Watchers weigh in tonight...here is a picture of me TWO years ago. What a great reminder of how far I have come since starting WW this past January.


and here is me December 07, right before joining. Probably the only picture of me with my glasses on too...and Bubba's looks so happy to be standing next to his Jolly bowl of Jelly Belly Momma. :)


Well...me now is me in the header...so YES, I have come a long way and it feels great.

No clever title

On the ride home from work yesterday I heard a story (it is probably and old one, but my head has been buried in the sand lately) about Rob Lowe's nanny suing him because he walked around the house naked.

My first thought was I think I want to be his nanny.

However, after reading some of the reports online, I don't know if I would really (ok maybe a little) want to be subjected to his (alleged) advancements.

I am not going to link anything up, just search Rob Lowe and it will be plastered all over your screen. It is really sad if he and his wife were truly acting that inappropriately.

On to Idol.

Sad sad night for my lil crush Jason. Simon was pretty brutal telling him to pack his bag...even Paula had to dig deep for a kind compliment to say. So I assume he will be bottom two.

After all, didn't I call the two Davids will be the final two anyway? NO? I didn't? Well consider it CALLED!!!

Speaking of Davids, I thought they both were pretty good, however, lil David definitely had a better night.

Syesha...I had chills when she sang her first song. I like her in that energetic, Broadway style. Second song? Yawn. I think she has a great voice, but she doesn't excite me with her slower, drawn out, yes I can sing songs. I did get a little teary eyed when she did, but that is because I am a BIG FAT BABY. ;)

So bottom two: Jason :( and Syesha. I think no matter which one goes, they both will have big careers after they leave.

YEAH, I got 'em.

Issues? Ladies and Gents, I have so many issues, your subscription will NEVER run out.

I asked my therapist if she thought I was a nut job, I just had to ask.

Her response? She sighed heavily and with sympathetic eyes said, (after repeating my question might I add...) "nooooo, I just think we need to have a one on one."

Through teary eyes, I agreed.

On to my Idol review. I didn't do it last week because I just knew (or so I thought)the two I adore were going to be bottom two. I was surprised though at the results.

So here is this week's:

Jason might be in bottom two :(...I still *heart* him!

Syesha has a great voice, but she just isn't memorable for some reason and where the hell are her shoes each week?


Brooke...I think her fan base is pretty big, she might make it another week. Her vulnerability I think is really keeping her afloat


David C..I think he is pretty good. Loved the second song...not sure on the first.


David A...he bores me.

TOOT-goes my horn

(Size of horn DOES matter, thankyouverymuch)
I hate to toot my own horn

((ah, who am I kidding? If I didn't like tooting my horn, I wouldn't be posting it for the whole Internet world to see))


(((if I knew how to cross out "Internet world" to make it say my 4 readers I would)))

(((( and on that note if anyone can direct me in how to change my comment link to NOT read Christmas kisses I would be greatly appreciative ))))

Horn tooting, I forgot where I was.

In my 15th week of Weight Watchers I have lost a combined weight of 19.2 lbs...YES!! When I posted how 3 lbs loss felt way back in January, may I revisit this idea and explain how 19.2 feels:

Pants = sag off my almost nonexistent ass. Pardon the language. I actually still do have a behind, but it sags over my legs so much that you can't really see it where it should be in the jeans anyway. I definitely need some butt lifting exercises.

Bras = extra material bunching up under shirts looking very...stuffed or severely lacking boobage. The once overly stretched band is now clipped on the tightest fitting it can go. Victoria Secrets, please lower your prices so that I may be able to afford more than ONE of your bras. Thanks.

Shirts = that once snuggled my waistline and bunched there so nicely are now HANGING off of my waist; its making me feel almost like I am in pajamas instead of work apparel.

Shoes = can these really be feeling big too? If I am going to be in the market for new clothes, can we just SAY the shoes are too big too?

I feel good. I still have the baby belly (yes, I know he is FOUR now) so along with butt lifting exercises, I need some lower belly exercising too.

In other horn tooting news...

Did I call American Idol? or did I CALL American Idol?

And with that I will take a bow and quickly leave the room as to not hear the snickers of jealousy ;)

D-Bomb

That could stand for the diggety bomb on Idol last night. I really was preparing myself for them all to bomb the Mariah Carey songs. I was pleasantly surprised. Not jumping out of my chair (with the exception of Jason) but it was a good night for the Idols.

I really thought that having them perform these songs it was just going to be a mess and a bunch of negative criticism from the judges. I thought this was going to be Simon's cup of tea.

First up was David A. Is his personality draining? Like as in he really doesn't have one? Or is the one he does have just waining on my nerves? I thought his performance (singing) was good, but afterwards his attitude is lacking.

Carley: I thought it was good, but agree that she seems to be holding back something. I think she has a great talent, but just not feeling it all the time.

Syesha...ugh, *yawn*, if I had to hear her belt out "vanishing" one more time I thought I was going to have to eat some ice cream to sooth my depression.

Kristi...it is her time, it has BEEN her time to go.

Brooke....I got chills. I don't know what it is about her, maybe her pureness, but I love her...then I got scared for her. I thought she was going to fall apart. She just needs more confidence, I think. Love her style though!

David C...I think he is the whole package as Paula has said numerous times about him. I thought it was ok, and a good twist on the song. BUT, did anyone feel like it was a little stalkerish. I mean, Mariah said something about the "haunting" way he sang it and I felt a little like it could be borderline creepy if he was singing it to me (if I were his girlfriend or something)

Jason. He is my boy. I totally could see him playing that at a luau, for our wedding or something......*yummy*

Did I touch on them all? That sounds perverted after my Jason thoughts. ;)

So my bottom three would have to be
Kristi - because yeah.
Brooke - only because she wavered
and Syesha - I just don't know why she is not memorable to me.

I hope that Kristi goes home. I fear that Carley might be in the bottom again as well...but I am hoping not.


On to other household news.

Buggy dropped a d-bomb on me last night and that d stands for divorce.

As some of you may know, Buggy is from my first marriage that went totally down the tubes after I conceived her. We were separated by the time I was six months pregnant and I had my suspicions that he was already involved in another relationship before the split even happened. It is pretty safe to say that my gut was RIGHT, seeing as he married this same "woman" just a few years ago.

After spending the evening with her dad, she came into the living room and plopped herself onto the couch. Out of LEFT FIELD, she looked at me and asked:
"Why did you and my dad get a divorce?"

Startled I asked her to repeat the question.
"um" I started, "well, because we fought a lot."

"About what?" she asked.
"Everything." I spit out, just shocked that it came so out of the blue for her to ask.

"hmm," she thought, "well you and my step dad fight about everything."

With that she walked out of the room. As if she didn't want a response or was just merely stating a fact. To say my jaw was on the floor would be an understatement. After a few minutes she returned to the room and again flopped herself on the couch. I knew I had to respond, say something. SO I ever so gently said, "Bugs, yes, me and your step dad DO fight a lot, but we are working on things and it is a different situation than me and your dad. Right now, me and SD are NOT getting a divorce."

She looked at me as if she really didn't care and started talking about her new puppy at her dad's house.

I know kids are smart and they know more than we give them credit, but to witness it is a WHOLE 'nother thing. I think it is time to sit her down and talk more about what is going on with me and hubs. I also want to stress that just because people fight it doesn't necessarily mean they will get divorced. I think I should also contact her father and make sure we are on the same page with the reason we did divorce. UGH.

Such a big topic for a seven year old. Now how to put it all in seven year old terms...

Hot Heart

man oh man

Wasn't the Heart and Fergie performance on Idol Gives back HOT? I thought it was. I love Heart and I like Fergie, but seriously, it was awesome duet. If I were a man I totally would have popped one over Fergie doing those flips on stage and that OUTFIT. Holy canoly.

I also enjoyed Mylie Cyrus, how cute is she? The skit with her and Billy Crystal was cheesy, but it really was cute.

What was with the bandage on Colby's eye? Bad zit? Wife knock him in the face with her ring?

So speaking of HOT Heart...hubby and I are doing ok. Still living apart, still searching for the answers.

He has remained sober since leaving the home, he has attempted a couple of AA meetings. I am skeptical, but that is my nature with him. I have not been able to count on him since day one so it is hard to actually try to count on him now.

Why is it that we can WANT something so much, but when we are faced with it, it scares us? Or maybe it is just me. Is the saying, you always want what you can't have? What happens when it looks like it might start going the way you wanted?

Our marriage counselor said we need to start a new foundation to our relationship. Why does this make my heart squeeze and tears form? Foundations have cracks, ours is demolished. It is time to rebuild. As much as I want that, as much as I dream of my life having a good foundation, I haven't the slightest idea as to what work that entails. I am afraid of having things go my way. I am a fighter and what if I have nothing to fight against? Why am I wanting to fight against instead of fight for?

I guess for as long as it took me to take this step in getting him to change, I resorted to the fact (or thought) that he wasn't going to change. I have imagined my life without and came to the conclusion that I could do it without him. I have to reimagine now doing this WITH him and showing our kids what a marriage should look like. That is hard when you don't have much experience in WHAT it really SHOULD look like.

From the outside looking in on friends that appear to have it "right" they make it look so easy. Why doesn't it feel easy?