Vers-a-tile.

THANK YOU TO STACI  FOR GIVING IT TO ME....

(take that as you may)

Look at what I got....*does a little award dance*

Versatile Blogger.

I looked up Versatile on the Merriam Webster site, here is what it had to say...

Definition of VERSATILE

1: changing or fluctuating flatulent??? readily : variable (a versatile disposition)

2: embracing a variety of subjects, fields, or skills; also : turning with ease from one thing to another ie: a little ADD, don't hate

3a (1) : capable of turning forward or backward : reversible MEEEOOOWWW (a versatile toe of a bird)

 (2) : capable of moving laterally and up and down done and done (versatile antennae)

 b of an anther : having the filaments attached at or near the middle so as to swing freely

4: having many uses or applications (versatile building material) you got it sista...or bro

 
The award requires me to list seven things about myself:

1)  I struggle this time of year NOT eating the damn Halloween candy.  Last year I had to hide it in the garage freezer so that I would stay away from it.

2)  I'm an overly emotional, sensitive, reactive person...but can be pretty level headed after the initial freak out. 

3)  I hate shaving my legs in the winter...but hate the way my legs feel when they aren't shaved.

4)  I don't do well without sleep, I don't mean I need lots and lots...but I need at least the minimum hours a night...

5)  I am an impatient person.  Really impatient.

6)  Christmas, or even thinking about Christmas this year makes me panic.

7)  Mr.FF rocks my world and it scares the shit out of me.  When I should be rolling around in the beauty of it all, I'm diggin in the dirt trying to muck it up.

Ok, there you go 7 things...you may or may not have known about me. 

I pass this gas award onto:
http://www.frugalmomknowsbest.com/...cause i like her. a lot.
http://tapdancinginthedark.blogspot.com/ - she's goin through shit...and still blogging like a champ. *bows*
http://therealperception.blogspot.com/. - with these words...GIRL DO YOUR THING.  'nuff said.
http://www.mommamadeitlookeasy.com/ - very well written blog...she actually puts thought into her posts...unlike others *ahem*
http://www.irrationaldad.com/ - great Daddy blogger....I love hearing the joy in a Dad's voice (via his writing) Kudos buddy.

I don't know how many I was suppose to pass this along to, but this should do...I'm a slacker

Have a great weekend!!!

Sometimes...you just have to

Sometimes, you just have to cut loose.

I'm not referring to passing gas.

This time.

No.

Sometimes, you (I don't know why I say you...cause I really mean ME) need cut loose and it's best to do that with GOOD people.

Saturday was the first Sox game I've gone to this season.


Paulie Paulie, you so fine.

Mr.F and I met up with Midwest Mommy and her hubby, who I like to lovingly refer to as Midwest Daddy or as he likes to be called, Mr. Clean.



Last year when I met this awesome couple I was so nervous. Blogger meet ups are nerve wracking for me. This year though, I was totally psyched.

These are GOOD people...and it doesn't hurt that they think like me...or at least I think they think like me. MW Mommy is GORGEOUS and funny, very very funny.

(see, just like me.)

MW Daddy, Mr. Spic and Span, is easy going and you can tell he adores his wife, which is BIG TIME AWESOME.

My company has kick ass seats. These seat come with a price though.



Usually when South Paw comes by with his gooney girls, us front row people don't get any of the shirts they throw into the crowd. They just never give it up.

This time, however, MW Mommy, she got lucky. The gooney girl reach into her sack and handed over these yummy salty nuts.



Mr.F was so excited about us girls handling the nuts, he wanted to get us more.



I had to have a taste.



This sent MW Mommy into a germ-o-panic, she didn't like me licking on her nuts.

"Who else had their hands on those nuts?" She said. "Don't lick my nut sack."

I'm not kidding she really said that.

Mr.F had a ball smack him right on the hand and he let it go. He should have squeezed harder.



It was a crazy night, balls, salty nuts, it was debauchery at it's finest.



I am sooo thrilled to have had the chance to hang out with MW Mommy again!



Aren't we the most beautiful group of Sox fans...oh wait, Mr.FF is a Cubs fan.  BOOOOO.

Thank you.

It's award time, bitches.
Sorry, it's not nice to call you bitches.

hookers. :D





from Buggys @ Cute as a Buggy

1. Copy the image above.
2.Pass the award on to the bloggers you feel deserve it. As many as you like.
3. Leave a message or a comment with the bloggers you give it to, notifying them of the award.
4. Leave a comment on the blog of the person who gave it to you.

I give this "award" to:

Pearls of Wisdom
Lilly @ Tapdancing in the Dark
Stacy @ The Order of Disarray
Lana @ Mother hides the Pearls





From...Modern Mom @ How to Survive Life in the Suburbs
1. Each Superior Scribbler (SS) must pass the award on to 5 most-deserving bloggy buds.
2. Each SS must link to the author and name of blog from whom he/she has received the award
3. Each SS must display the award on his/her blog and link to this post which fully explains the award.
4. Each blogger who wind must visit this post and add their name to the Mr. Linky list at the Scholastic-Scribe's blog so we can keep track of all who wins this prestigious award!
5. Each SS must post these rules on their blog.

My choice of 5 bloggers are:
Jennifer @ Momma made it look Easy
Frogs in my Formula
Lin @ Duck and Wheel with String
Sissy @ My Kid's Might be Martians
Jen @ Redhead Ranting





From Read the Bee.
Rules
1) When accepting your Bee's Knees award you should link back to the person that presented it to you.

2) You should pass the love onto any other blogger(s) as many or as few as you so desire.

Big Mama Cass @ The World Through my Eyes
Lissa @ Whooo's That Girl
deMented Mom @ The deMented Mom


From Staci @ Just Bloggled

This one's easy.
Midwest Mommy @ Mommy from the Midwest (love ya girl)
Porky @ Le-Porkstar
Bev @ Out of My Head and Into Yours
Courtney @ Whiskey Girl
Samsmama @ Raising Stink
Last but not least.
Orgie Meatball @ "Why?", "How?" and Other Abstract Questions



From KrimmyK @ The Official Blog of Krimson

You give good blog...
Kristen @ All in a Mom's Life
Mary @ Grilling in the Rain by Flashlight
Chrissy @ I Shoulda Been a Stripper

And there you have it, enjoy the awards 'cause I enjoy you.

Thank you to all of you that awarded me these beauties.

Did you say it's my birthday? er, Anniversary

so, I started this post for my birthday which was just a short, 13 days ago. Yeah, I didn't finish it.

*ahem* so.

Let's celebrate my blogiversary instead. Here are the gifts I've been showered with lately.

celebrate, bitches...



Don't feel bad if you haven't gotten me anything, you still have time.

(mail to: Stacie's Madness, Madnessville, IN)

onward.





I haz awardz yo.


Messponential gave me the LOVE YA award.

(BTW, CHECK HER OUT, she is really funny and it's good writing going on over there.)
Here's what it's all about.

The "Love Ya" Award states:

These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers. Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award.


Well, I do, I do like to make new friends. Via the internet AND IRL. I enjoy leaving comments and reading bits and pieces of other's lives. So THANK YOU!!!

I have to pass this on to 8 other bloggers. Let's see.

I'm not going to send it to 8, call me a rebel.

This is going out to someone that I could totally be friends with IRL, not that I couldn't be friends with all of you. Really.

This blogger has been commenting on my blog since day one...that's a two year relationship. Just to let you know, three years married is all I do, it seems.

(cut the crap Stacie, get to it)

Mommy from the Midwest.
She rocks.



and...



The Honest Scrap Award from Stacie (Cause us Stacies have to stick together)




The Rules:
1 - Thank the person that gave it to you. Thank you Stacie! (it's not me really, click the link, there's another Stacie in the world)

2 - List 10 honest things about yourself. Oh Good grief!! :D

3 - Put the honest scrap logo on your blog. Done.

4 - Select 7 other bloggers that you think deserve this award. (you can't make me)

10 honest things about me...

1) I honestly hate these "tell all" memes. I draw a blank. Ask me to blog for two years all about myself, I can do that, but to come up with a list? Not as easy. I'm a horrible procrastinator.

2) I honestly love cheesecake, but don't like the calories.

3) I honestly hate how my boobs look now that I've lost my excess weight.

4) I honestly can quit smoking, but I don't wanna.

5) I honestly am a romantic fool, but honestly suck at romantic relationships. Hello divorce number 2, how are you?

6) I honestly love reality tv. Their lives are so much uglier than mine.

7) I honestly love music. All kinds. Except country music unless it's poppy country.

8) I honestly saw Ricky Martin in concert twice. What? He has a nice bombom.

9) I honestly wonder how I can be this old...and a mom to two...where does time go...and who are these kids?

10) I honestly don't know what age I'd be considered a cougar...just wanna know when I hit that age so I can hit it. Proudly.

mmmkkk I'm giving this to one person who I admire in all her honesty on her blog. She needs to keep up the good work, let's give a round of applause to my bloggy friend Renaissance Woman @ Just trying to Squeeze the Most Out of Life

Next...


Mary at Mother Nos Best gave me TWO awards.





Rules (fine print)
1) Accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award and his or her blog link.

2) Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you’ve discovered. Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.

Holy hell! 15 bloggers?
Some recent finds and reads for me...

Organic Meatbag, whom I affectionatly will refer to forever as Orgie Meatball

The Daily Wit, just as it says, Wit Daily or whenever he's not on blog break.

Chris @ Maugeritaville. Cause hair on chin but no hair on head is hot.

The DeMented Mom

Whiskey Girl or self titled Ass Sweat.
While we're on the Sweat team, check these sweaters out too:
(ha, sweaters. They're like the Christmas sweaters that you hate to love, or love to hate, can't recall)

Bev-Muffin Sweat @ Out of my Head...into Yours, muff-tastic MYLF (mom you'd like to F) nice.

Raising Stink, Samsmama AKA Boob Sweat. AKA my Pimp.

Porkstar Ball Sweat, aka Perv Porky or as he likes to call himself muff moistening cute. (we all have dreams...and his are mostly wet ones.

Kristin @ All in a Mom's Life - AKA
Bonkadonk Slap and apparantly my sister in this group of sweaties, cause we don't have sweat in our names, *high five*

Onebadmamajama @ This Blog Ain't About You AKA Starfish Sweat- the worst of the given names cause really? Starfish Sweat makes me gag even more than Ball Sweat (and that could just go really dirty right there...MOVE ALONG)

one more just to be odd, 11 instead of 15,

Ms Sassy Pants, cause I think she'd fit right in with the other sweaters...but she'd be a hot pink, off the shoulder, skin tight sweater, yo.

and....

(this is tiring)

Again from Stacie (see, Stacies are thick as theives yo)

"The Humane Award is in order to honor certain bloggers that I feel are kindhearted individuals. They regularly take part in my blog and always leave the sweetest comments. If it wasn’t for them, my site would just be an ordinary blog.

Their blogs are also amazing and are tastefully done on a daily basis. I thank them and look forward to our growing friendships through the blog world.

Recipients of this award should write a post about it, linking to the person gifted the award, along with ten of their own nominees."

I am grateful, really I am...but this one CRACKS ME UP, especially the highlighted part, "Their blogs are also amazing and are tastefully done on a daily basis"

muahaha, has Stacie been reading MY blog? Tastefully?

*clears throat*

Yes, if nothing else this blog emits TASTEFULNESS.
Yes it does.

(shut up)

Ok, this award is going to *drum roll*

Grilling in the Rain by Flashlight- I am a new reader of hers..I think she's funny...and I'm peeking my head out of the closet to let her know. Delurking. Kinda.


LASTLY...Kasey at A Hook...A Line...and A Girl awarded me...this beauty.



Here are the rules, so many stinkin rules. *wipes nose*

Rules of this award:
1.Thank the person who nominated you for this award.

Thank you Kasey, it's a great "kreativ blog" you have as well. :D


2.Copy the logo and place it on your blog.

done.

3.Link to the person who nominated you for this award.

done...but for good measure and a spot in heaven (I need all the extra points I can get) Kasey @ A Hook...A Line...And A Girl

4.Name 7 things about yourself that people might find interesting.
1) I don't suck
2) You suck.
3) Sucky sucky
4) I surely won't be getting awards with this STELLAR LIST.
5) Your momma.
6) MY momma.
7) Sometimes finishing is as good as cheesecake.

5.Nominate 7 Kreativ Bloggers.

Anna-Boderline Bonkers.
Caroline's Thoughts
John@ Gay Dads in Munchkin Land
Kami @ Kami's Khlopchyk
Susan @ Life's too Short to not Share

five's the limit. so there. :P


6.Post links to the 7 blogs you nominate.

whatever, suck it.

7.Leave a comment on each of the blogs, letting them know they have been nominated.


*whew* that's a lot ya'll

what?

Maybe I haven't said f*ck enough.

Or reviewed enough Eden Fantasys stuff.


ah,I guess I'm OK with PG 13, but I was surprised to have gotten that. I could have at least gotten a NC-17 like Cora from Love letters by Cora.

Giveaway, Awards and Thanks.

EDEN FANTASY GIVEAWAY ENDS TODAY...

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Lookie what I got...*drum roll*




From Sara of Ordinary and Awesome...
Isn't it sweet? I am a SUPERSTAR in her eyes...which to me is QUITE the honor. :) She's quite the blogging superstar herself, she has:




a Review blog


and she is the owner of Subjective Beauty!! I know.





but guess what....



Rob from Peanut Butter and Smelly's Dad awarded me the same award...

Click over he's hosting a FABULOUS Sunglasses Warehouse giveaway, CHECK HIM OUT in his SUPERSTAR glasses...and enter your chance to win your own gift certificate.

So TWO PEOPLE think I am a superstar...which makes it totally true!!!

I am a superstar and you can't take that away from me.

When I get awards I feel like dancing.



I'd like to pass this award on to my SUPERSTAR blogging friends...


1) Kristin @ All in a Mom's Life. SUPERSTAR BABY!!!
2) Mommy from the Midwest -PARTY LIKE A SUPERSTAR BABY!!!
3) Ms. Sassy Pants - M-Fin SUPERSTAR!!

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For my fellow entrecard users...see the left hand side of my blog for the top droppers from April, thanks for your drops and support.

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Lovely blog, why thank you.

The Demented Mom @ So Random gave me an award, that's her button up there, click it or ticket it.



I also got this same award from the LOVELY Sha @ Today's Daisy, check her out too.


Here is the lovely award.



It's always a lovely day here at Stacie's Madness.

Speaking of lovely did you vote for me yet?

click this button to vote, vote each and every day. ;)

Giving this award to TOP 15 bloggers....how about some new ones I've started reading.

The Daily Wit

When I Grow Up

The Nerd in the Corner

I hate Whine

Peanut Butter and Smelly's Dad

Rock and Drool

Tubal Tales

Momma Made it Look Easy

Frogs in My Formula

Shit that's only nine. F*ck it.

if you read AND comment here, please take this award.
Cause you're all lovely.
I think I love you.
That's all.
Happy Memorial Day ya'll


well, the boozing and tanning anyway.

now that's all.
k-bye.

She knows me so well and she doesn't even KNOW me

So I got this card in the mail...I think it might have been for Easter...but I could be wrong...

Inside says, sorry I haven't called, I've been a little gassy.

And then, in all of Gwen's glory, she did a little poof of what I assume is a gas bubble exploding around the word "gassy"

It was signed, PU, your friend Gwen, or maybe it said sincerely Gwen. Something like that. I like to think it said, your friend. Whatever.

This girl doesn't even know me, yet she knows me so well. Maybe it is all the Poo talk I do here...

Regardless, it is hilarious. I love that I am on HER mailing list, you should have seen the Christmas cards she sent out. CLASSIC.

It was sitting out on the counter one day, longing to be scanned and discussed on this here blog when my kids spotted it.

"MOOOM, why did someone send you a card with someone pooping on the front?"

"hey! How do you know she's pooping? She could be just peeing."

*crickets*

I stuff the card in the drawer.

"Moooom, WHO sent that to you?" looks of disgust with bubbling laughter hidden behind it.

"Oh" Lord how do I explain it was a fellow blogger without answering that, well, it was a fellow blogger. No one gets blogging unless they blog and well, my kids can barely spell, so bloggin means nothing to them.

"Just a friend." I answered.

"IS that HER? in the picture?" the giggles are starting spill out.

"HA, yes, yes it just might be and maybe next time we take a trip to St. Louis we can visit her!"

Now looking a little scared, they said, "um, will she still be pooping?"

NOW, I am laughing. Kids, they are obsessed with poop. I don't know where they get it.

So, Gwen, get your stool ready (oh, hahahahah, stool) next time we are in St. Louis, we are looking you up. ;) oh, AND, that poo face looks a little painful, may I suggest Fiber One Bars, no more will that face appear. TRUST.

LOV-AHHHHS

Don't forget to enter my Eden Fantasys Giveaway!
Click here to get your entry!
Winner will be drawn March 31st 5pm central time. SO HURRY. :)

THAT'S TODAY YO...GET YOUR ENTRY IN....

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Look what I got. *puffs out chest*
This is from my friend, fellow blogger and lucky charm mommy. :) Andrea's blog is clever and cute. So THANKS ANDREA!


this shall go to my TOP TEN commenters.

"Lovers of my Madness"
Lov-ahs for short.

1.Samsmama (23) @ Raisin Stink Her comments really crack me up. So Samsmama, thank you, please keep commenting...cause you are NUMBER 1 in my book.


2.calicobebop (20) This beautiful lady has been commenting on my blog, since early early days when I first started. She is WICKED awesome. Definately NOT a Cat Killer...


3.Midwest Mommy (20)
I can not say "Midwest Mommy" without grinning...and she just offered to cook up some tortillas in an apron and red heels. I mean, if I rolled that way, that is HOT. I am thinking of moving our relationship further and crashing in on her BlogHer trip.
What do you say Midwest Mommy, I'll wear an apron and heels too. ;)


4.Natalie (19)@ Normal to Natalie a few words come to mind with I think of Natalie...and one is INSPIRATIONAL. She has done amazing things on Weight Watchers...and every time I feel like just giving up the whole point counting thing, I go there to see another goal she has hit..and it makes me remember where I started, how good it feels to be where I am and TO STAY FOCUSED. (WHEW was that a run on?)


5.mo.stoneskin (18) @ Mo "Mad Dog" Stoneskin is a new reader here at Stacie's Madness...and he is ALREADY A TOP 5 commenter. Even better than that, though, HIS BLOG IS SO WITTY, and SMART and is from over the pond so I read with an accent and it makes it even more exciting.


6.Kami (16)@ Kami's Kholpchyk this is another loyal reader, commenter and I will say, a friend. You want to see inspirational...check out Miss Kami in her two piece...it's totally rocking...and I want her abs.

7.Chris (16) @ Text Imps. Chris is also new here and her blog is new to me, but so far so good, we likey likey.

8.*Lissa* (16) @ Whooo's that Girl newer reader...and I am totally in awe of her pictures...check her out. Nice. It's really Nice.


9.SP (15) @ Ms. Sassy Pants my long lost soul sister, who writes better than I could ever. She goes from intense, deep, thoughtful posts to some off the wall sex story (or maybe I am making that up) but I never leave her page without nodding my head in some sort of agreeing manner. Or maybe it's shaking my head in digust that I didn't think of the post first. ;)

10.♥Caroline♥ (15) @ Caroline's Thoughts..everyone..."sweet Caroline" bum bum bum. 'Cause she is, really sweet.

Thank you to all of you for your comments...cause they make me laugh, they make me happy and I love each and every comment I get...I wouldn't be blogging if it weren't for the comments keeping me going...FOR REALZ YO.

Check them out...cause I think they all rule (of course they rule, they comment here, don't they?)

If you are not on this list then what the hell are you waiting for? Comment.

Hey! My eyes are up here.

I know, but how can you NOT stare they're it's just so beautiful...



I bought this from Stacy (who spells her name wrong, but I still dig her) ;)



Not only does she have an awesome blog, which is celebrating a 2 year anniversary today... but



She also has a kick ass Etsy shop too, Check it.

You won't be sorry.

I have no future in jewelry photographing, these pictures don't do it NEAR the justice it deserves. Nonetheless, thank you Stacy for this beautiful necklace you made, I love it, so glad I ordered it. There are so many different colors in this necklace that it goes with EVERYTHING. I love that. I have had many compliments on it and therefore I pass them all on to you! KUDOS, friend.

'Til we shop again. *cheers*

350 of Fabulous Posts

That's a lot of posts right???

WOW.

I have gained different readers since the beginning...at first, I felt pressured to blog by friends (online friends). They were doing it, so I thought I should too. It has grown so much since then. Now the pressure is there if I do not blog and get the stuff off my chest or mind!

I love the support, advise and release I have gotten from this blogging! So thank you to all of you for coming back.

Here are some of my favorites from the past...if you dare wish!
Duck Jerky Jig - I have been posting about my bodily reactions since the early days. APPARENTLY!!

Lost my ability- Hubby exchanged my BRAND NEW ROASTER for an OLD ASS Nintendo DS...and I still haven't gotten the new Foreman Grill.

Good Morning Mommy - someone said, this was the post that sold them on my blog and they kept reading because of it, I don't remember who it was or if they still read, but thought I would share it. Can't believe this was a year ago.

Bubba's Fourth Birthday Tribute- still the same little Shit!

Sobering Thoughts- I found this one interesting. It was when I filed for legal separation. HMM.

Shart Happens...and part Duex (or Duece)

Actually I have enjoyed going back and reading a few of those, it reminds me WHY I blog...

So moving on...
I love blogging...and it is really nice to look back, but also, it is nice to receive blog love like this from Chris at Coke on my Keyboard
I just posted this prematurely, don't you hate when that happens?



I am suppose to list FIVE things I am "into" right now.

So here we go...
1) reading. I love the escape.

2) blogging, see above reasons.

3) um....fiber one bars, LOVE EM, I could eat them all day, but it's not recommended.

4) dark chocolate, into that BIG TIME.

5) my health and weight

OK, passing this on to...

My favs...
Ms Sassy Pants and this post is why she is fabulous...

some new reads that I really like

Mama's Other Side AKA My kid's might be Martians
CinnKitty@ Pink Piddy Paws, whoa, she can be all kinds of naughty fabulous..plus I am vicariously dating through her. ;)
Stinky John Jones
and finally
it's a Schmitty Life Title says it all.

Hope you enjoy! Happy Friday all!

Hand me a towel, it's cold in here.

Breathe (2AM) Anna Nalick
there is a verse in this song that rings with me every time I hear the song.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, its no longer
inside of me, threatening the life they belong to
And i feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

though, change song to blog...I know it won't be all rhyming then, but that is how I feel about this blog. I seriously write half of the stuff I write on here to get it out of my head....to no longer feel it's weight on my brain and heart. Sometimes just writing it all down feels better.

Then I go to dinner with a good friend. She confesses that she has been reading my blog (HI KARA) and I panic. I feel exposed, naked if you will.

It's funny because I know a few of my "in real life" friends read my blog, I suspect a few of my in-laws might too (not positive)...I mean I know these people MIGHT be reading, but as I post it doesn't really occur to me that they really are...does that make sense?

When I come here to write, it is almost like picking up a diary or a journal and spilling my thoughts....thoughts that maybe I wouldn't share normally. Yet, I come here, to the world wide web and post these thoughts...and then people comment, but it really doesn't feels like I have told something so personal to feel the chill of nakedness.

I did though, when she said she has been reading. Not because I have said anything here that I haven't told her about before, and not that I have EVER wrote something negative about her...I just felt my heart sink and I felt "exposed".

I don't post all sugar and love here, I post REAL honest feelings, things that are happening, good and bad...and sometimes to know out loud that a friend is actually looking in is a little scary. It's like my cover has been blown. My "act" of perfection has been blown...EVEN THOUGH SHE KNOWS I AM NOT PERFECT.

Am I making sense?

So tell me, do you have friends, family, in-laws reading your blog? How does it make you feel, do you "edit" your content with their presence?

I can't, won't, because my life isn't sugar plums and candy (I am hungry for some though) and I need this blog to release the good, bad and the ugly...

*this draft has been sitting my cue for over a week...and through that week these fabulous people ALSO blogged about blogging... LOL
Lisa @ Take 90 West
Kellan @ On the Upside and she didn't stop there...continued
they really state it beautifully.

What's your hourly fee?

Some of you should be my therapist...kinda the reason I blog is to talk this stuff out...to create little therapy notes for myself...to hold myself accountable to the goals I want...oh and also to talk about my kids n stuff.

I love love the advise I get from you Internet friends; some of you could really be my therapist and I am totally getting you for free. SCORE.


Ya know how someone asks for advice or talks to you about a problem and you offer them suggestions or your opinion and they shoot it down? I hate those people don't you?

I'll try not to be that person.

Liam said...
I understand the need...

I can tell you to let it go, but the need won't go away...

Sorry. No sage advice. Just warm and fuzzy thoughts.

November 6, 2008 9:41 AM


Liam, YOU'RE FIRED.
Just kidding. Warm and Fuzzy are my other middle names. Stacie Guilty Avoidance Warm Fuzzy.



Gwen said...
I admire the courage you have to face him. Remember that we're right here rooting for you from the sidelines!

November 6, 2008 12:50 PM

Gwen, SHUT UP, you commented on my blog????

When I read other really smart and funny people's blogs, they become just a figment of my imagination, and then a really smart and funny blogger RESPONDS to one of my posts and I am like a school girl who was just felt up by *insert heart throb here*. Oh and then I start to think, damn, why must that really smart and funny blogger have to respond on my whiny ass daddy issue post?

*sigh* well, GWEN, thanks for admiring my courage cause you like ROCK...and you're smart...and funny. *blushes*




Average Girl In Average World said...
You are not alone. I know I have stated this before, but the more people I talk to, the more I hear people talking about how their own Dads were MIA when they were little. Maybe not MIA, but the lack of caring or compassion or even supporting whatever it was at the time that was important to you.

If you have that great of a weight on you where YOU HAVE to do this, just show up at his house. MAKE it happen. Until you get the answers you are looking for, my heart goes out to you.

November 6, 2008 1:43 PM

AGIAW...thank you and you are sooooo right, I should just show up at his house...um but that would take balls, and well, this girl ain't got 'em. I will really think about this...because there is nothing more than I hate a whiney bitch who just whines and whines but doesn't nothing about it. SO, I tip my hat to you, because you are soooo f*cking right...I should just show up, MAKE IT HAPPEN.

PinkPiddyPaws said...
No Daddy issues for me since I don't even know who the sperm donor is. But Mommy issues? Yeah, I got those up the yin-yang. My thing is -- I finally realized that she was just poison to me so I cut off all contact. I've been happier ever since.

But you gotta do what you gotta do, ya know?

Good luck and thanks so much for stopping by my site!! :)

Cheers,
kitty

November 6, 2008 1:54 PM

*hyper ventilating* Did you and Gwen decide to just put me in heaven today...another really smart and funny blogger....woot.

I have thought this too, the poison thing...and I have pretty much eliminated him, see birthday invite post...but it still lingers...and I think that if I could just say these things to him AND THEN chop off his balls realtionship I might be able to put it more to rest. That is my HOPE anyway.



Petula said...
I came over from Mom Bloggers Club. I hope you find resolution and peace in this situation. {{{{hugs}}}}

November 6, 2008 2:18 PM

Thanks for stopping by...



Natalie said...
i hope this time it works out for you to get together.

oh and don't bite your nails!!! yuck! :-) eat some chocolate or go for a run or something!!!

November 6, 2008 3:00 PM

what? I didn't read anything after you said chocolate. ;) Thanks sweetie!


*MARY* said...
I really hope things work out this time. Good luck :)

November 6, 2008 4:01 PM

so supportive you! thanks.


Kami said...
It sounds to me like you need some kind of closure....Natalie is right. Make it happen or you will be torturing yourself!

I hope you find peace with this issue!

November 6, 2008 8:39 PM

Another vote for making it happen, again this is soooo right. It's as if you all are saying, look we love you, get this shit done and quit your bitching. I take it in the most loving way and you are RIGHT ON THE MONEY.


caroline said...
sounds like you have some things to get off your chest to him...it's not going to hurt a already dysfunctional relationship..right?
Do what makes you feel right.

November 6, 2008 9:56 PM

Even my new readers are BRILLIANT. I love the "it's not going to hurt an already dysfunctional relationship"!! Brilliant...and yes you are so right.

Valerie said...
I have similar issues, but they are not with my dad but my mom. I was raised by a single dad. I've found that its good for me to say the things I want to myself rather than to my mom. It falls on deaf ears anyway, and then I end up being the only one effected. Seriously, write it all out and set it on fire. Let it all out, and burn it up. Sounds like regardless of what you tell your dad, he wont be effected by it.

November 6, 2008 10:23 PM

Yep you nailed it. THAT is my biggest fear. One that I have thought a lot about and talked to my PAID therapist about. I think THIS is why I haven't made that leap, shown up on his door. I am trying to figure out what I want from this, what is the reaction I am "expecting", "hoping for" and what happens if it isn't what I get from it. On the other hand, I just don't know if I can live with it, or let it go if I don't do it. SO I am really trying to examine my motive and make sure that in the end I will be ok, no matter how he reacts.



Renaissance Woman said...
Having the need makes perfect sense and I am so proud of you for even trying to put yourself out there. Hugs to you...and good luck.

November 6, 2008 11:09 PM

My beautiful beautiful Renai woman. Will you please let me crash on your (therapy) couch if I am ever out your way? I think we were meant to be best friends. Or is it birds of a feather flock together?


calicobebop said...
I wish there was a way to make it easier. It's too bad he's not as willing to extend his hand to you. You can't blame yourself for the feelings that you have. I'm proud of you for perservering!

November 7, 2008 8:01 AM

Thank you...thank you.

Seriously you Internet friends are a great pill to my sorrow, pain and happiness. I love blogging. YOU all are part of the reason.